People lie, not only guys.. I had the same problem with my ex, I knew something was up, and every time id attempt to call her on something she'd have this way of turning it around on me so it was my fault.. sometimes I wish I was dumb because I was unbelievably happy and had everything I needed for a year and half, and wanted to marry her, aside from what transpired :'( its people don't be so hard on yourself you'll find the right guy.. its the few that make the rest of us seem like assholes, something about girls makes them attracted to the assholes, and us good guys(and great lovers) lol get left behind un chosen hopeing for the girl who will smarten up and stop picking douche bags:P goodluck sherry!